just got an update on my internship and  it was SHIT! really i was emailed "sorry but there are persons more fitted with the skills we are looking for" it was really long ill copy paste it

Dear John,

We are sorry to inform you that we do not currently see a clear fit between your skills and experience and the job in question. We found you a very interesting candidate during the initial Interview/Test stage, but the current position demands that we are certain that the applicant has the exact needed qualifications from the very start.

We hope that you will not feel discouraged from applying for another job from our company in the future.

Thank you for your interest in WorldPartner.

Sincerely,

i dont blame them actaully i dont know my own skills, i may have no failing grades and i get a fair and good marks but i always question my abilities and shit.

im like a duck, calm and collected on the surface but under the water my feet are squarming and shit always out of control and althouhg i can keep my composure but im not all that im just a person who actauly doesnt know what things are.

I have been meaning to write this; on that particular day well here we go on June 20, 2009 I had a get together actually 4 birthday celebrations in one, me, my best friend Janelle my sister Jeen and of course my Dad. Did you know that my dad and my best friend have the same birthday? And that one of the “kinakapatid” of my best friend has also the same birthday as mine?  Its quite a coincidence if you think about it, we will never forget each others birthday right. Because there is always something that would remind it somehow. Well anyway the party was a blast, we ate drank, played games, sung, and even tell stories of our past lives it was one of the best times I had with my friends in high school I was very fortunate they came even though they tried to trick me that they are not coming trying to surprise me, well actually it worked I believed the first 2 text messages and the third one was the killer. What gave them away was the phone call which was a little too far, if they hadn’t done that then the secret might be even sweeter. Well its still a surprise for me they came 5 of the closest friends I have

Janelle

Carz

Tin

Fae

And Bianx

But of course the Boys: we are always tight

Julio

Posie

Mark B.

Gab

Py

Daryl

James

Enzo

Jasper (almost a last min. show!)

Ark

And Ryan

I would like to thank you all for coming to the joined celebration, I wished the night would never end and of course we would enjoy it forever. But as time will always cut you short the night ended we were all drunk as HELL!!!! Especially tin ahahaha PEACE!

And Am really sorry because one of my friends got scolded by their mom REALLY sorry!

Anyway there were un-finished businesses on that night regarding a particular letter that was supposed to be given me that night so after a few days C, J and I got together and they gave me the letter. I opened it and to my surprise there were 2 name tags that were sent back to me, which is WHY in the HELL will you DO that????

Let’s just say if you had something important a thing that you treasured or valued because it has a special meaning and you gave it too someone who you loved and then after some time that person whom not necessarily you still loved gave them back to you? What will you feel? What are you going to do?

Well I just asked her via text why she gave them back she replied:

She said: Binalik ko kasi important memory un ng HS mo.

I said: bkt mo pa babalik eh binigay ko na sayo un talaga what will you feel if something important to you na binigay mo sa iba then after sometime binalik bigla sayo ? anu ggwn m?

She said: ito na ung 22ong reason  kasi nawala ko ung mga bingay mong mga letters sa akin kasi nilagay ko un lahat sa  isang box, eh nakalimutan ko ung box  na un sa house namin dati nung binalikan ko wla na dun kaya ko binalik sayo kasi ayaw ko na maicip ung box na un.

I said: well kung valued m talaga ung contents nung box na un hindi mo ibabalik sa akin ung gamit na to kasi ito nalang ung natitirang mga remembrance at memories nung box na un kung importante talaga sayo un tatago mo ito hindi mo babalik sa akin, kasi anu gus2 mong gawin ko dito ngyon after all this time babalik mo lang pala?

She said: sorry hindi ko naicp un e.

…..

She said: sorry

I understood that she never thought over things clearly. She acted on her feelings at the moment and never understood the importance of the things she has done the effect and circumstances of the made actions. Regards with the letter she wanted to start all over, if she did want to she should be honest from the start don’t make silly stories that you happened to give it away because  you wanted to, she must tell me the real reason for that we are friends after all and we understand each other. Well to be honest she also mentioned that she has a new “her” changed for the better if this is was the new her, it would be really difficult for me to be close friends again because there is no trust at the start, there is no honesty and above all understanding on both parts.

Well I looked up some old things, pictures retreat letters and such.. I came across a phrase “ sana mas maging maganda ung friendship natin in the future, hindi ko sinasabi panget well kasi minsan un.  Hindi na kasha e.. ”

To me this was very important it reminded me on all the past difficulties problems and conflicts that me and my friend shared, and successfully we still over came that and stayed close and best. Thank you.

something that reminded me on somethings:

Believe in you,

not in the ones who believes in you,

not in the you who believes in others

but

you should just believe,

believe in your self

well its the 3rd day of the 2nd week of june.. and there is still no call yet from the companies i have applied in..

so tomorrow we are going to have a job hunt and after wards inuman sessions at my friends house in moonwalk

basagan nanaman sila ahahahahahahaha well sana tumagal aku like last time

pero ngyon mas marami na kami, complete barkada na hehehe

it rains rains and rains cant go outside and play basketball, or jog.. its too damn cold but its better that way i rather have cold weather than a hot one.... and everyday the water when you take a bath is so DAMN cold its like water with ice and in a freezer XD

So this things happend:

Still dont have a Company for internship, still waiting..

Its's been 4 to5 days since we talked..

Cleaned the house..

Downloaded stuff for it to be sold.. small business

Tried a new recipie .. SUCSSES!!

Played ball with people i dont actaully know, and its dark it wa about 7pm? well luckily we won 3 games straight

Still havent talked to the person i want too..

Played online games and network games because of boredom..

Two birthdays have come up one with my best friend Janelle and the other is with my dad same day.. we celebrated at home.. so many FOOD!

Got a chance to talk to her, just a few text messages..

Having the same werid dreams >.<

People are becoming busy

Played basketball, we cot the win again but at a price i have a swelling ankle and back pains >.<.. -latest activity and still waitng